My Introduction of Love to You

*Lathan*

You were suppose to be a man that I adored from a distance. A fantasy, never a dream come true. My imagination ran wild whenever your name come up. My thoughts seemed to break free from the world. Drifting to a place that I thought I knew.

I feel in love with a beautiful stranger.

I dedicated my time and devotion only to you. You were suppose to be a man that I knew from a far, never a man that I could fall in love with. I'm drowning in a world that's invaded by every memory of you. I can't help but to fall deeper and deeper in love with you. You have me stuck...lost...engulfed....mesmerized.

This is a love poem is about you.

I layed many sleepless nights thinking about you. Playing with every little thought that I could do to you. I wanted you and I wanted you bad but my lips couldn't produce the right words to say how much I adored you. Now I'm fighting. Fighting a battle with my emotions. This is an unfair claim to the game. I want to express to you how bad I exclusively want only you but you're not ready. You're not ready to be loved correctly. You're allowing your pride steal away your chance at real love. But...

I'm still dedicated to only you.

Love is tatted on my left arm as a sign, a reminder, hope that it still exists. I look up at your face and smile because its evident that love is slowly creeping its ways out of the shadows. You're a sign that God exists. You're a reminder that I can dream. You're my hope to love again. You gave me life. A world renewed.

I will always love you.

Ink written on a pad, words spoken, memories imprinted and tears roll down my face. I'm in love with a beautiful stranger that doesn't know I exist. He sees me. He breathes me. He lays with me. But he don't really know me. My heart bleeds every time I smell his presence. I cry internally every time he smiles. He cuts me with his words. But still I'm not ready to let go. Fearful because I believe in something those can't really see. I believe in an everlasting love between you and me. But when will you see?

This is only my introduction of love to you.

Written 12/31/2009
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