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When I first saw this def poetry video, I cried! I know alot of you probably thinking I'm crazy as hell but I'm dead serious! I felt the same pain and spoke the same words as her. I haven't seen this video in years but it came to my mind to go find it on YouTube so I wanted to share this with you all. This video is dedicated to all those who have loved and lost! Enjoy!

Prayers Unanswered

Have you ever found yourself mad at yourself or even God? Things aren't going your way or you can't seem to find yourself reaching towards the top. We all go through this throughout our lifetime. We don't understand nor want theses trails and obstacles but its what makes up stronger.

Over the past two years I have found myself upset with myself for repeated mistakes and decisions. But what I know I have noticed is that I change the way I make my decisions. I have changed internally! I'm still working on me.

When I'm now unsure, confused, sad, happy or lost I find myself crying out to the Lord. My prayers are my hidden thoughts, fears and words that I NEED to get off my chest. I may not understand what my next step will be but I need that clarity from God. Right now I find myself again upset with myself. Why you may ask?......

I'm tired! I'm tired of being sick and tired. I'm tired of focusing my positive energy on negative people. When you send out your energy on people, you're suppose to get what you put forth. Now that's a pretty common sense idea but when you keep meeting selfish people its different. I have realized that I keep meeting selfish/self centered, careless people. I go to God in prayer and ask him for clarity and guidance but it seem like I don't get any help.

Is God nicely punishing me? Is he allowing these things to happen to push me towards my purpose? What do I need to do??? I'm confused into what I need to do, where I should go and what do I need to change? I'm frustrated!!! I'm trying to stay focus and grounded but it seems to me right now that I'm stuck. I'm going in circles. I keep falling and getting back up. Why?....

I'm scared to ask God that;why? Why do I go through what I'm going through now? Why can't I get the opportunities, chances and better options? I know God will deny some things that aren't right for you but when will I receive the chance to have the "real thing." I know I don't ask for much. Believe it or not, I'm a very simple person with complex decisions. But God know the desires of my heart.
Patiently waiting....
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Magnets

"my *crush*"

Two souls from a different world, a different time, a different mind set. Walked different paths to end up at the same crossroads. Facing one another with smiles and compassion.

We're lost in our own thoughts. Stuck in between a 10 year difference but that doesn't stop us. We're drawn to one another uncontrollably. Tensions run high, souls on fire, while minds roam free. I want you......

You want me......

We played. We flirted. We danced. Now it's time to let go of all fears. Let our minds free, explore each others bodies, enjoy each others kiss. We're so far but so close. Our bodies are fighting this feeling but our souls eventually will win........

Magnets push to pull but they also stick together like glue. Based on their electrical charge, it'll either do one of the same. But love is the name of the game. We will move our bodies to the same rhythm. In tune our minds to form into one. Beatting the congos. Magnets pushing to pull......

Pushing to pull, pull to push. In and out. Up and down. Our bodies will move to the rhythm of this electrically charged beat. We're magnets. Postivite and negative. Two poles from different atmospheres. Two souls from a different world, a different time, a different place, laying here occupying the same space.....we're magnets